I have often had these questions! Am I a fatalist? Am I someone who determines my own destiny? And each time I have got a conflicting answer, never to realize which one I am completely in sync with. Turns out that the answers keep changing each time ;).
But I do have an issue with me being a fatalist – it creates the definition that everything is predetermined, nothing around us is in control and no matter what we do, what is supposed to happen will happen! That means to say that I have no control at all with what is going to happen in my life. It maybe true, but doesn’t that create a helpless cry? I mean to say if that is the case, there is no need for me to do anything at all, I can simply sit at home, probably do nothing, just keep myself in total relaxation, never involve myself in the hustle bustle of the daily life. Sounds simple and easy doesn’t it? If that is the case, I guess I would be completely miserable, not knowing what to do, how to and most importantly why to do that something!
On the other hand, if I am a believer that everything is in my control, well maybe I am telling myself a lie. But my question is – IS IT THAT BAD A LIE? Atleast it gives me a sense of responsibility, a very strong push to keep myself in action, the brilliant competition which keeps the senses alive and elevates us each moment and that fire inside which keeps pushing us outside of our comfort zone and makes us achieve those beautiful things which define us and to a certain extent which keep every spirit in our lives alive.
Having said this, I wouldn’t want to be completely against fate either, I am unsure about that whole conundrum. But something I am sure of is what Hawking says – even fatalists look at either end of the road, there is perhaps not an easy way to say and give it all up. We love the sense of control, we love the sense of working towards those things which mean a lot to us. We love the very sense and the very definition of US. Perhaps if a fatalist can define that, then I guess that might be the way to go! Till then, I would certainly like to believe that I am in control, even if it is a lie!!
It’s your troubles, who can handle it better than you?