It was my gym’s annual event. I went all prepared as if I was going to win the world. The event started late as per the Indian Stretchable Time, an hour late from the IST. You can’t blame them, it was a Sunday morning. Events started and I was the first one to participate from the women section. I put my strength and threw the shot put. Hurray! It was 2.35 mts. Then comes the other participants throwing 4mts and above and that’s when I realized mine was the least of all. “Don’t lose your heart! You have many more competitions” I assured myself. I tried rest of the others and then on every time I was either the last but one or last but two to finish. I guess you can title me as a loser. I played 6 events and didn’t win any. As they say participation is more important than winning, I was happy about it. That’s my mantra when i come last in anything 🙂
I had lost in every event but I felt great about something. Can you take a guess? Nah! Not about participation. There was someone who gave up before me or someone who finished after me in every event from then on. Oh yea I felt so good when someone performed worse than me 🙂 For every event I made sure I gave up after someone else did. Sometimes it feels good not to be the first person to give up and I know it feels great to not to give up at all but I guess it’ll take sometime for me to reach there.
Don’t I sound a little sadistic who enjoyed seeing someone fail? Call me anything! it did make me feel better. When you can compare yourself with someone better than you and feel bad then why can’t you compare yourself with someone bad and feel good? If comparison with the better ones challenges you telling “come on! You have to beat him!” then comparison with the worse ones tells you “You are not the only one! There are worse performers!”
Competition is mostly with oneself. Right? I totally agree with it and try to follow but it feels motivating to accept challenges from better performers and feels comfortable to take consolation looking at the worse ones . You need not feel bad for your performance as there is always something to feel good about, either the participation or looking at someone fail worse than you 🙂 You always have something to be happy about 🙂